Decision Making

Never considered myself a very decisive person. My decisions in life so far have been based on things I dont want rather than what I do want. It has been made on things that are not too bothersome, things I dont mind or by simply just going with the flow. Even if there is something I really want and I find it hard to accomplish, I am the type who gives up and to do easier things in life. Why am I talking about all this? Just been doing a lot of self reflecting these days ( too much time). I have never worked hard for anything in life. I am not in the lest bit ashamed of this fact but it just makes me ponder. Like my university degree and my current research, these are not things I had a passion or desire of wanting to do. I knew I didnt want a teacher's degree, an art's degree, a business degree or a nursing degree, so by the process of elimination I chose sciences. It was not my fascination of the human body that drove me into this field. I am in no way saying that I did not enjoy my three years of Undergrad. I got to specialize in topics I like and have come to gain an understanding and liking for these subject. Likewise was my decision in choosing my research topic. The opportunity came along, it didnt look too troublesome, gave me another year to spend in Uni, so I grabbed it (truthfully I did attend an interview for the position, but it wasnt too bad). A line from an article is what comes back to me now: Many people have answered late to the all time school question, "What do you want to do in life?" (or something like that, it just means people have wasted their life not knowing what they want or ignoring their passion). I am still unable to answer that question and admire people with the answer. I wish sooner than later I come to realize what it is I love, so that I can be adamant about something in life.